sky day 215

sky day 215

Image by maureen_sill
remember, self
you are capable of being a good person
you are capable of being a good person
you are also capable of being a person who is not always good
so watch it, self

a lot of my favorite people seem to spend a lot of time feeling as if they are very stupid
i have been told that i look like a cartoon character
sometimes i think that when i look at someone's neck it means almost the same thing to me as if i were trusted to see them naked
as if it were as personal a thing to me

an inner monologue that is twenty three pages long
made it's way into my journal two days ago and since then i have worked 20 hours
i am glad that i was able to get it out before i numbed my braincells for seven dollars an hour

on a bike ride today i felt that satisfying burn in my legs, when you pedal fast
when i was racing to the field to try to get there before the sun had actually set
route 83, you are the only place i can really be alone
the couple of times i went without a camera
are oddly the most memorable

i have been thinking a lot about what kate said on the phone about
how things and circumstances are forever changed because of the fact of the existence of the camera, forever changing what happened, forever changing what actually happened
i think about her standing next to the berlin wall in a beautiful city with a lot of people standing around, everyone posing for a picture
i imagine japanese tourists holding maps, tiny pink digital cameras
their bodies probably in coats, their little arms probably holding their backpacks or purses
i imagined her standing there with others
probably not knowing whether or not they should smile
because of what the berlin wall used to mean, obviously
and it didn't make sense to her
and she is right, it doesn't make much sense
and then i think about the pictures my parents took of me when i was a baby
before i knew what a picture was and before i knew what it meant to want to try to take pictures of something because you loved it, you loved it in an obnoxious or a whispering way, either way it was something you felt
was worth documenting or attributing to your image, if you're the sort

or wanting to take pictures of something because you wanted to understand it
i want to understand things more than i want anything else
which explains my fascination with the "cruelty of abstraction"
and the fact that it is impossible to understand anything
and then
i looked at pictures of myself as a baby, sitting in the dirt, my hands in the dirt
naked in the dirt
that photo was brown, and whatever color my skin is, and bright orange, my hair against the dirt
and the blue sky
my legs are buried in the dirt
and then i looked at the photograph which i have taped next to my bed of my dead grandfather at dachau concentration camp, he is holding a folder with some papers in it, i assume
it is one of six photos i have ever seen of him
and i know photos are fake and they are not real and they don't help me understand things as much as i'd like to think that they do but then when i look at the picture of him standing in front of the gates to that place where his friends and two members of his family were murdered (according to my grandmother, who is perhaps not always as much of a reliable resource as i would hope, but for the sake of something, i will try to believe her) and so
i look at that picture and i don't know
because of it i know what his face looked like and i know a little about what was important to him or how he decided to cope with things that were probably hard for him
because of the fact that he actually went to this place
where people he cared about were murdered
and i feel like i could maybe try to understand why he did that
and why he went alone
and why he took a camera
and i will never know if i am like him or not
but when i look at that picture i feel like i might be like him
i never met him and i never will meet him because of what he did to himself
but looking at that photo makes me miss him

Alice's Adventures in Wonderland (Illustrator: John Tenniel, 1865) Tall Alice

Image by Toronto Public Library Special Collections
Tall Alice, one of her many changes of size during the story, is an iconic image in children’s literature. p.[15].

Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland, by Lewis Carroll, with forty-two illustrations by John Tenniel. London: Macmillan & Co., 1865, this edition 1897 (eighty-sixth thousand).

“Lewis Carroll” was the pen-name of Charles Lutwidge Dodgson (1832-1898), a shy don who taught mathematics at Oxford. Though Dodgson never married, he was devoted to his child-friends, particularly to Alice Liddell, who is portrayed as the “Alice” of the eponymous tale.

The story of Alice’s Adventures Underground, published as Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland, (a title often shortened to “Alice in Wonderland” in later editions) was told extemporarily to Alice and her two sisters during a boat-ride one day in July, 1862. Alice asked Dodgson to write it down, and he obligingly spent many hours recalling and transcribing the story.

The tale was published in 1865 but Dodgson was not satisfied with the quality of the printing, and recalled this edition (some of the books from this printing were sold in the United States). The book was reissued in 1866, and was soon a nursery classic.

Sir John Tenniel (1820-1914, knighted 1893) was originally a cartoonist. He was born in London and studied at the Royal Academy Schools. His illustrations for an edition of Aesop’s fables led to a job at Punch magazine, for which he created over 2,000 cartoons, but he continued to illustrate books, including Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland (1865) and its sequel, Through the Looking-glass (1872). The illustrations for these books were engraved by the Dalziel brothers.

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Subject: Real Illusions #18

Image by aerostockians1scaf.sofact
Description: >Hopefully soon I will be able to upgrade to a FLICKr pro account, and organize my photos into sets, making it a lot easier for me and for you. However as for now it is recommended that you start by reading the “Description” at Real Illusion #1 and read all the “Descriptions” in all of the Real Illusions #1 through #17, if you are to understand what is happening here with these aliens.
>These photos in Real Illusions #18 are all similar in scene but are being shot at different times in the day or evening. Time brings about changes.
>Simply view all these photos in the LARGE SIZE provided by FLICKr, and open up a new more alert, astute world for you.
>When trying to identify those Aerostockian’s that are in the photos, you should look for a HAZY BROWN IMAGE that almost looks like a Spirit. Sometimes the image is outlined and shaped by a black thin line. The eyes almost always show dark pupils and a bright white eyeball. Sometimes one or two of them appear to be completely bright white in colour and look like a cartoon character. Don’t be thrown off by the fact that they will form around a natural shape. For example if rocks and leaves have fallen to form the shape of two eye sockets and a head, then you might assume that this is all it is, simply rocks and leaves. True that is all it is unless you see those items draped or surrounded by what is a Brown Hazy Spirit. With practice you will learn to tell the difference. This is their God-given method used to facilitate concealment; and besides spirits (transparent-cloaked beings) always seek to cling to or posses something.
>As you learn what to look for, I assure you that in each photo you will readily identify nothing less than twenty (20) aliens. Usually they are in the form of snakes or animals or weird human faces. One will always see the alien because they are not spirits (you can not see spirits), they are simply bending light rays (? Or however God did it). I do not believe this is a technology of theirs; it is the functioning level that God made them at. Again providing more proof that there is a God. To become a Spirit or transparent we Earthlings must first die but not the Aerostockian’s. However I hear that our scientist are working on and will soon have this cloaking capability.
>I believe them be to humans but understanding that they come from another planet, they had to adopt for survival on their planet just like we humans of the earth had to adopt for survival on our planet. So let’s not judge or be critical of these little people because they could be here to usher us into the space age, providing the common man with a cheap spaceship technology that affords every family the ability to purchase a spaceship for the same cost of purchasing a car. The effects of Global Warming could force us down this highway.
>After all, I don’t think that God intended for all generations of earthling, to settle on not travelling the universe. With God’s seal of approval, I will teach Christ to these aliens and if at all possible they in turn will provide us Mankind with a technology that allows us to mass produce spaceships at the same cheap price of purchasing a car.
>There is a God because He is the union between us humans of the earth and those humans from other planets. The truth is that all intelligent life in the universe has the same Creator-God and the same saviour, God’s only begotten son, Christ, the link joining together all human life in the universe.
>So look closely and you will start to see a new world. In the Aerostockian world just like in our world; animals are animals and snakes are snakes and pets are pets and human type FACES are human. Each photo although sharing the same scene but not taken at the same time, will produce additional life. We humans move around, well so do the Aerostockians. You are simply looking at an alien SOCIETY, at alien daily activity. Just like us humans, they live in groups not located far apart. They are a sovereign nation of human beings. God gave them their sovereignty just like He gave sovereignty to the nations of this world.